Valentine’s Day. A day of love, chocolates, and roses. A day where couples flood social media with cute selfies and song lyrics. And yet, here I am—alone. Again.
It might sound ridiculous to some. I mean, I’m the girl who gets attention everywhere I go. I get messages from guys all the time, telling me how beautiful I am, how much they’d love to take me out. I’ve been stopped on the street by strangers, told I look like an angel, a dream, someone too pretty to be real. And still, when February 14th rolls around, I don’t have that special someone holding my hand, posting about me, calling me theirs.
It makes me wonder—what am I doing wrong?
People assume that if you’re pretty, love comes easy. That you can pick and choose whoever you want, whenever you want. But the truth is, attention isn’t the same as love. Compliments don’t equal commitment. And DMs don’t mean devotion.
Maybe guys see me as just a pretty face. Maybe they think I have too many options, that I’d never choose just one. Maybe they’re intimidated. Or maybe… they only ever liked the idea of me, not the real me.
And then there are the girls. The ones who whisper, roll their eyes, throw fake smiles my way. Some assume I’m stuck up, that I think I’m better than them just because guys notice me. Some say it must be easy for me. But if it were, why do I feel so alone? Why do I second-guess my beauty when jealousy turns into coldness? Why do I wonder if it’s all just an illusion—if I were truly beautiful, wouldn’t someone want me by now?
I know I’m young. I know love isn’t a race. But when you’re surrounded by couples, when people constantly tell you how much they want you but never actually stay, it stings.
So here I am, another Valentine’s Day spent scrolling through other people’s love stories. Maybe one day, someone will look at me and see more than just my face. Maybe one day, it’ll be my turn to have the kind of love people write about.
But for now, it’s just me, playlists, and my little blog. Happy Valentine’s day, I guess. Love, Lenna
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