I apologize that my blog has been a silent witness to the passing of days. Four months of unwritten thoughts and unshared dreams, like autumn leaves drifting, waiting for a gentle breeze to stir them to life. Today, as the world turns a new page, I return to this digital corner. Welcome back, dear reader, to the blog of a girl who has changed drastically during the last few months.
I no longer like Taylor Swift, but fill myself with romance novels from the 1930s. I have changed schools to one my mother works at, and have most people obsessing over me.
Wanting nothing gives you everything.
Suddenly, when I saw my own potential to be who I should be and stepped out of my past depressed and anorexic me, I shined. I prayed to God while the boys sent me messages and I became everything. Popular, happy, new. Polished, with makeup and new clothes. Skincare and expensive shampoo. I'm so much more beautiful, my skin is glowing and every day, the goal is to be stunning. Not just survive, but live in the new me.
What would the highest version of me do? I step into that mindset, as a fifteen-year-old. Mum understands me, and has started to love me again. Dad on the other hand, loses his mind over another lipgloss purchased from Too Faced. He dosen't understand how it's another part of me that the girls may go to the store and smell and perhaps buy, only because of me. How my following has gone up, and people complain about others being jealous of me.
Guys, I'm so happy. I left my old school behind, along with the friends who pushed me down. I'm no longed on their level. I'm everything.
Wanting nothing gives you everything.
I love youuu, sincerely, Lenna
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